Showing posts from September, 2012

Oy! My Karma Backed over My Dogma…

Redefining ones-self always consumes a lot of energy. Have you ever tried to turn over a new leaf? If so, you may understand a bit of what it takes to give yourself a makeover or even a complete overhaul. In honor of the New Year, I made a resolution to myself: “I am going to seek inner awareness and peace.” As lame as that sounds, it is funny that for the last 4 years or so I have been seeking just that, a complete makeover and what I believed to be inner awareness and peace. I learned almost constantly, I prayed as hard as I could, as often as I permitted myself, and I tapped the known knowledge bases that the available universe had to offer; but, I still found myself hovering just to one side of the center of free will. No matter what I tried, using only rational thought as my modus operandi, I could not break with the ever-constant relationship between stumbling doubt and immanent awareness…. No matter what I tried, I had to introduce belief, which just so happens is a c