|Poetry from a dream after my mother passed —|
Birthing belief in the stars, I feel the suck swooping down to encompass my silent haggis.
Her rattle swears in its own single mammogram clutch selling crystal liquid from a bottle,
The container that produces me spinning overhead like a cat in a burlap sack or a sacrificial chicken.
Writing poetry over the wall furiously with blood green and messy, she is…
Singing along with the echoes of her voice bouncing across the wallpaper around my mind
Rattling with magnesium bullets, ricocheting in the ramshackle village where I grew up, showing bones bleached in the moonlight.
My list of worries selfishly rolls out onto the floor, scratching the tile with a shifty rustling, like snakeskin catching on grass,
My skin has risen, but I don't mind since I have forgotten what it felt like and don't know or care.
In a sweat full of cheap and easy transactions, I awake,
And awash with the wonder of clarity becoming emptiness,
I look up to the blue sky that wasn’t a color just a moment before;
I see cheating there puffy clouds, and I lift my feet off the ground,
My knees don't bend, an angelic stump; my body moves up into the jet stream, twirling, spinning, bliss abandoned.
I realize I was dreaming in the other place; but, now awake, I soar,
From my own caged mind a trap door opens, I fly though it and fall.
She’s not in the world;
Not reading poetry from planet other, over the telephone, click beep, click beep,
Not waiting for me to parent-up and being cute and small, telephoning, click beep, click beep.
I soar and I spin,
And then I wake to realize that I cannot fly,
I was only sleeping, dreaming, and I have been left alone with loving care.